How to Numb a Heart

They say it's a gift to be sensitive,

That emotions make us human.

But your words fall into icy hands

And fall lifeless at my bare, frozen feet.

 

Trying so hard to numb the pain,

I'm trying so desperately to freeze.

My emotions are killing me inside out,

Tell me how can I stop my heart?

 

I am a lost ship at sea drowning in salt.

Tell me how I can cut my nerves apart?

I don't care what you say my only goal

Is to find a way to numb my heart.

 

I am dying, I am drowning.  I can't hear you.

I've gone too far this time, I don't trust myself.

Am I doing this all wrong?  I just want to

Stop feeling these emotions that drown me.

 

My heart is so fragile I can feel it breaking,

I become a surgeon and try to mend the tears.

Ice spreads and grows, I keep the chemicals pressed.

To stifle my nerve endings, to save my brokenness. 

 

Tell me please what I want to hear.

I'm killing myself but can't feel the pain.

The more I scream the less I hear,

So tell me how to numb my heart.

 

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My poems are the words of my heart.  Treat them gently, humans.