Panic attack

It came so sudden,
An attack like lightning. 
My breath is choked. 

I smell the metal

All around me.  I can’t breathe.

The walls are closing.

 

Caving, crushing me,

My mind is trapped in a box.

Metal walls bite me. 

Hands gripping tightly,

Struggling to stay alive.

Keep the walls away.

I see through a mist.

Chest heaving, help me someone,

Please make the fear stop.

Lights glare and blind me,

Breath stuffed inside my lead chest,

My brain will not work.

 

There is no way out.

But at last the box is gone
And for now, I’m free. 
 


A confession:  sometimes I lose my mind.


Sometimes I lose myself in a panic attack and it scares me.  This has been happening since I was about 8 years old.  I've been fighting it ever since then.  They're not so bad anymore, but they're still there. 


So I did what I usually do with my fears.  I put it to poetry.  Because poetry makes everything better. 


It enables me to dissect my feelings, trying to figure out how to fix this. 


Poetry separates me from the fear, so that I can look at it from the outside.  Once I can translate something into poetry, then I feel like I can beat it.


It gives me a sense of being stronger than my fear, more powerful. 


I don't mean to sound depressing by writing about this, but panic attacks are very real and devastating things.  And if I want to overcome this, well I can't do it alone and in the dark.  I have hope that this can be overcome and poetry is my weapon. 

one of the most inspirational lyrics ever

And here is the music video for the song those lyrics are from:

Stay alive, frens |-/


Do you have panic attacks or know anyone who does?  Give them a hug, okay?  Does it help you to write your fears down?