Introvertness.

So I went to the store tonight with my mother.  My mother asked me to ask a cashier how much something was.  And it was in that moment that I realized the extent of my Introvertness. 

Do you have any idea how terrifying it is to ask a cashier anything? 


I don't mind checking out, but going out of my way to find someone who isn't busy and ask them how much something is....kill me now, please.  It's quite scary. 


I go to stores because I want food, not human interaction. 


So to comfort my terrified soul, I had to get ice cream.  Or maybe two. 

preach it, Ethel

Ah, the joys of being an Introvert. 


(Just to clarify, I ended up not having to talk to the cashier because I am a stubborn person who is afraid of talking to strangers sometimes.  But you know, I needed ice cream to sooth my ruffled soul so.)


I mean, some days I LOVE people.  I will talk to strangers, I will fangirl with strangers, I will become instant best friends with strangers.  Then I have my non-people days and if you so much as look at me I will hide and cry.  Or hiss at you. 


Today was one of those LEAVE ME ALONE JUST GIVE ME A BOOK AND NETFLIX AND ICE CREAM AND I WON'T HURT YOU days.  Weeks.  Months. 


I'm an Extroverted Introvert.  Or a Hermit Who Sometimes Likes to be Social When it Involves Food or Books. 

Anyway.  I've been so busy with school and Life and more school and volunteering at our local Catholic radio station (which is super fun but EXHAUSTING) and of course, more Life.  I had to take calls at the radio station and I accidently said "Awesomeness" to one caller and she laughed at me and it was embarrassing.  And I'm not going to tell you how many times I muddled up my words. 

 
Shhhhhh......


I mean I get terrified at the prospect of talking to strangers over the phone.  It takes me a long time to prepare for calling strangers, especially if it's to ask a question.  It helped a little bit that we got to wear a fancy headset and mic and be all official with computers and forms and stuff. 


But guess who the first call went to?  Guess who was the first person to answer.  Me.  Moi.  Yours truly.  I almost died.  I was hoping so much that someone else's phone would ring first so I could watch them and learn because I had so no idea of what I was doing.  So of COURSE I was the first call.

So I discovered Panic! At the Disco's cover of 'Bohemian Rhapsody' AND I AM IN LOVEEEEEEEEE I TELL YOU.  I am a sheltered child, so I only discovered the original song like a month ago, and since then it has been like my favorite song ever.  I mean, come on.  It amuses me so much.  Like it doesn't make much sense, but it's so amusing and it makes my ears happy so.


BUT P!ATD MADE IT EVEN BETTER.  So I am officially happy with life. 


Then the TOP cover of 'Cancer' came out and all the happiness drained away because once again Twenty One Pilots succeeded in making me into a Burrito of Sadness with their beautiful sad music. 

literally every TOP song ever

Everyone listen to this song and be happy little Introverts, m'kay? 


I have lemon cookie ice cream so bye. 

Are you an Introvert?  Have you heard either of those songs and what do you think?