Day Seven // FINAL DAY OF THE CIVIL WAR BLOG PARTY

This is it, y'all.  This is the end.  My last LISTEN-TO-ME-RANT-ABOUT-THE-WONDERFUL-THING-THAT-IS-CIVIL-WAR-ALSO-BUCKY!!!!!!!! post.  Well, not forever, but at least for a while to give you peoples a break. 


So.  Let's get started. 


Day Seven: Talk about your general feels and overall opinion of the movie!

I think I already talked about my general feels....yeah, that's been done.  But just in case you weren't listening, here's a summary of what my general feels were like:

in other words, the feels were painful

And afterwards I was just sitting there like this:

I didn't really know what to do with myself or how to even get up and function normally afterwards.  I got into the movie very much and when people would try to talk to me or make jokes I would ignore them and just stare very seriously at whatever intense scene was occurring. 


My overall opinion of Civil War was that it was amazing (if I didn't make that clear enough hehe).  I fell in love with every single character.  All of them.  I LOVE THEM ALL THEY ARE ALL MY BABIES AND ARE PRECIOUS LITTLE THINGS. 

I think that is probably one of my favorite things about Marvel; they create such amazing, believable, lovable characters.  The plot can be as cheesy as it wants, but I will love it anyway because the characters are what keep the story going. 


ALL THE NEW CHARACTERS THOUGH.  It was like Christmas!!  One movie and we get all these new characters and old characters and characters from different movies and it was glorious. 


Antman....LOVED HIM SO MUCH.  I haven't seen Antman yet, so this was my first introduction.  And needless to say, Scott Lang is a perfect and precious cinnamon roll of awkwardness. 

Black Panther...oh goodness.  I was not expecting to love this fellow as much as I do.  He's a legit king who also happens to be a warrior who wears a panther suit with retractable claws that are the coolest things ever. 

And then there's Rhodey, Sam, Natasha, Clint, Wanda, Peter, Vision, Bucky, gahhhhhh I love them all!!!!

Then there was the action.  Gods of Asgard, I haven't seen such flawless action scenes in a movie like....ever.  There was that one part where Bucky is running and he catches the motorcycle and twists it around and leaps onto it going the opposite direction MID-AIR. 

The first time I watched it, the entire theater just went "WOAHHHHHH" and started clapping.  Probably one of the best moments in the whole movie, I have to admit. 


All the fight scenes were so masterfully choreographed.  They were all so distinct and unique and so much fun to watch, really.  There was that one fight when Bucky had gone all Winter Soldier mode, and the one with Black Panther, and the one with Steve and Bucky escaping the flat (that one was actually pretty funny), and then...the sad one.  The one at the end of the movie. 

I was crying so hard through this entire scene.  MAH BABIES ARE FIGHTING AND IT'S HEARTBREAKING. 


And that brings me to another thing I loved about this movie.  The sheer amount of emotion.  The emotion that is packed into this is just astounding.  The fight scenes aren't just guys fighting for no reason, they are emotion-driven, emotion-filled, and you feel for the characters as you drown in a pool of your own tears. 


(SPOILER ALERT!!  DON'T READ PAST HERE UNLESS YOU'VE SEEN THE MOVIE!!) 


During this fight scene, I thought that people were going to die twice.  Hence my hysterical sobbing.  I was so sure that Tony had killed Bucky when Bucky had him up against the wall.

so much sadness it hurts

You see the flash, the music rise up to a crescendo, Bucky falls back with his metal arm ripped off, and when he falls to the ground, not moving, I was so certain that he was dead.  I had been so afraid that Bucky would be killed in this movie, and now I thought it had happened and then when I found out he WASN'T dead, I realized how attached I was to Bucky and that if he ever DID die, I would never get over it. 


Same with Tony.  When I thought Steve was going to decapitate him with his shield, and when he drove his shield into his chest, something inside of me died.  Seeing these characters on the brink of death made me realize how much I love them and how much it would hurt to actually lose any of them. 

I didn't get over the trauma of Bucky almost-dying for about a week.  People were like, "But he didn't die!!!" to which I would bawl, "BUT HE ALMOST DID!!" 


It was traumatic.  And Bucky going back into ice was so sad.  He knew that he was dangerous and that it would be safer for him to go under.  But it felt so much like he was dying.  I couldn't help thinking that going back into the ice symbolized his death. 


Sorry, I'm a mess. 


(END OF SPOILER!!!!)


The imagery of this movie was sooooooo gorgeous.  It was so pretty to watch.  I love movies with amazing color and depth and effects and camera shots, and this one nailed it perfectly!!  I was very satisfied by the way it looked. 


By the way, I totally ship Wanda and Vision to the ends of the universe and back.  THEY ARE SO ADORABLE ALDGHSLKGHSLG.  Vision is a precious little armadillo and when he was trying to cook Wanda's favorite meal for her it was so sweet.  Because he's never cooked anything before.  And his endeavors are so cute.  So much adorableness between those two, gah. 


I ship them so much it hurts. 

how can you NOT ship these two????

Oh yeah, and this part.

Let's just say, I totally forgot all about Sharon.  Completely forgot about her.  So when her and Steve had that kiss....I nearly had a heart attack.  Like, WHY IS HE KISSING HER WHAT DID I MISS AHHHHH SLGKHSLKGHSDLGH *BREAKS THINGS*  But then I remembered my friends calmed me down by remembering for me so everything was okay. 

And this part.

I died.  The entire theater was in hysterics.  These two.  Oh mah gawsh. 

So yeah, while this movie had a ton of heart-breaking, soul-crushing sadness and feels, it also had so much humor and snark and sass and AH the SNARK.  So many good lines loaded with enough sass to kill a kraken. 


So that's my general, overall opinion on Civil War.  If you haven't seen it, shame on you.  Go watch it.  NOW.  DO IT.  SHOO. 


I'd like to give a big thank you to the very lovely and amazing Bella for hosting this blog party.  I don't know about y'all, but I had a lot of fun talking about Civil War.


Baiiiii.

What is your overall opinion on Civil War?  Wasn't it amaaaazing?

Day Six // Civil War Blog Party

HUMANS OF THE INTERNET. 


I have returned burdened with glorious purpose. 

(That is seriously my new favoritest quote now and I will say it in response to everything. Like, "School?  Bah!  I am burdened with glorious purpose.  Can't do school.  Not today.  Must conquer Midgard first.  Ta ta.")


Anywho. 


I don't even know why I'm talking about Loki now....HE HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH CIVIL WAR. 


Can you just imagine Loki in Civil War though? 


Loki:  "I HATH RETURNED, PUNY MORTALS.  KNEEL BEFORE--"


Tony: "Are you kidding me?  This guy again?"


*Both teams stop fighting each other and go defeat Loki*


*then everyone is friends again*



*PEACE AND SHAWARMA*

 Day Six: Fan festivities! Post fanart, make a fan-video, wear fangirly clothes and post pictures, do fan crafts. Do something fun!

SO.  I DREW A THING.


Here is my fanart:

le Winter Soldier

This was actually a pretty quick drawing.  I get lazy with charcoal and don't have to pay attention to as much detail as I normally would with color...for example the hair was just mad slap-dash scribbling.  Which is why all my graphite drawings seem to have the same hair....*squints suspiciously* 




Since I'm apparently talking about the drawing process now, the hardest, most frustrating part of it was the mouth. 


UGH.  I HATE DRAWING MOUTHS.  THEY ARE SO HARD.  And so important!  If you get the mouth wrong, it will ruin the whole picture and the drawing won't look like the person at all.  If you want to make a drawing look realistic, THEN MAKE THE MOUTH LOOK RIGHT. 


As you can imagine, this is a very stressful thing for moi.  I got very angry at Bucky while erasing and drawing and erasing again his mouth.  As if it was his fault I couldn't draw his mouth.


But besides his mouth, he is actually pretty easy to draw.  Some people are harder to draw than others, and Sebastian Stan is one of the easier ones. 


Now if you'll excuse me, I'm going to go play Marvel soundtrack stuff on the piano. 


Farewell! 


What fan stuff do you like to do (i.e. fanarts, cosplays, cake, idk)?

Day Five // Civil War Blog Party // In Defense of Bucky Barnes

So here I am again, for Day Five.  I’m sitting here with my purple tea and feet pulled up on the chair because my peoples trapped a huge lint-covered spider under a plate underneath the computer table this morning and now I’m scared it has a family lurking in the shadows underneath the computer table and they’re gonna come out and eat my feet off.  And devour my soul. 

SPIDERS ARE FROM HELL. 

(The trapped spider has been disposed of…so it’s not actually near my chair plotting my demise.  But its children could be.  So I’m terrified.)

Sorry, got distracted. 

Day Five: FREE DAY! Do anything Civil-War like that you want!

TIME FOR THAT BUCKY POST.  MUAHAHAHAHAHA. 

Let's talk about James Buchanan Barnes, shall we?

Do you want to know that one thing that makes really, really mad?  When ignorant little mortals say things like, "How do you even like Bucky?  He's a bad guy!" and "I didn't like him, he was ugly and scary and a serial killer" and then this whopper, "Who's Bucky?"


SLKGSHLKGHKLSGHSKLG!!!!!!!!  HOW DARE YOU.  LEAVE MY PRESENCE.


Seriously though.  After watching Civil War for the second time, about 98.56 % of my friends said those above-mentioned things and nearly sent me into an apoplectic fit as I screamed at them, trying to make them understand that Bucky is NOT evil and Bucky is NOT ugly and NOT a bad guy and NOT a serial killer.

Because he's not any of those things, and it boggles me to no end how people don't see that.


Okay, so remember Bucky Barnes back in the 1940's?  Back then, back before Steve Rogers had become Captain America and was still a dandelion fluff of weakness and asthma, Bucky was his best friend.  He and Steve were like brothers.  Bucky looked out for Steve and got him out of bad situations again and again, like that fight in the alley.

Back then, Bucky was Steve's protector and partner-in-crime.  They grew up together, did everything together.  Bucky was good with the ladies, cocky, and not afraid to fight.

Then the army took him away to fight in the war and separated him from his best friend.

Bucky was then captured by the enemy only to be tortured and experimented on by HYDRA.  When Steve finally found him, strapped down to the torture table in the doctor's lab, one of the first thing's Bucky said to Steve was, "Did it hurt?"  He's clearly in terrible pain, but his first concern was that Steve.  What a sweet little potato he is.

Bucky and Steve were basically inseparable.  Once Bucky understood that Steve was now the Important Guy, he was perfectly willing to go with it and back his friend up.  They traded roles, now BUCKY was STEVE'S sidekick.

But then...just as Steve found him again.....he lost him.

And everyone thought Bucky was dead.  Steve thought that his best friend had died.


Then he came back.


In The Winter Soldier, Bucky was not the sweet, caring friend who had stuck with Steve through thick and thin.  He was a changed man. 

HYDRA had saved Bucky when he had fallen from the train only to turn him into a monster of their own making.  Since his left arm had been torn off in the fall, they created a new one; an arm made of metal.  HYDRA wiped his mind and proceeded to construct a totally new person, giving him new purpose and a new life.

The Winter Soldier was NOT Bucky.  The Winter Soldier didn't remember any of Bucky's life, all that remained of him was an empty shell that HYDRA filled with their poison.

The Winter Soldier is a ruthless, trained killer who is controlled by HYDRA.  He is not Bucky Barnes.  Metaphorically, Bucky is still dead.  Bucky was killed when HYDRA turned him into a killing machine.

Then Steve finds him again.  He still thinks Bucky is dead, and now when he finds him again alive and well after 60 years, Bucky doesn't even know him. 

*cue hysterical sobbing*  AND STEVE IS SO CONFUSED AND HEARTBROKEN AND THEN....

"I knew him"

This happens.  Bucky remembers.  Just for an instant...then HYDRA wipes his mind again and Bucky is once again gone.

Because this is how they controlled him.  HYDRA was constantly taking away his memories and wiping the slate clean to turn him back into a submissive soldier.  His muzzle is very symbolic, too.  He's just an abused, muzzled dog on a leash that HYDRA uses to do their dirty work for them.

But this assassin wasn't Bucky.  Bucky was lost somewhere, still dead inside the shell of a man that had once been him.

He didn't even know his best friend.

Then Bucky beings to remember again.  He's trying to remember.  He's struggling.  Then saves Steve when he should have killed him.  Watch the video:



Look at the horror in Bucky's eyes when he realizes what he is doing.  He's suffering, trying to remember.  And the remembering itself is agony.

So Bucky comes back, but he is still struggling with the Winter Soldier part of him that has taken over his mind and body.  He still can't remember much at all, and he keeps reverting back into Winter Soldier mode. 

There are scenes where Bucky is buying plums.  Did you know that he was doing that to try to get his memory back?  Apparently plums are useful for remembering things.

Bucky killed lots of people.  He killed Tony Stark's parents and he remembers.  When Tony asked him, "Do you even remember them?"  Bucky's sad response was, "I remember all of them." 

It was the Winter Soldier who killed those people, not Bucky. 

In Civil War, HYDRA has a method of brain wiping him by speaking a series of certain words.  They use this to convert him back into their killing machine.

To everyone who says that Bucky is a villain: first of all, how dare you.  He's not a villain, he's a victim!  He can't help it!  He's been tortured and abused into submission, his free will has been stripped away from him, he can't even hate his abusers because of this.  Bucky is trapped inside an experiment, a broken body inside a monster.

So please, stop calling Bucky a bad guy.  He's not. 

To end this post, here is a free style poem I composed about Bucky's transformation into the Winter Soldier. 



 

Falling through darkness

My name is Bucky Barnes.

They can’t make me do this

I can’t forget.

Pain, so much pain

My name is James Buchanan Barnes.

Everything hurts, everything is going black

Help me, I’m so afraid.

Falling, forgetting, they toy with my mind

I won’t forget you, Steve.

I’m stronger than this, they can’t change me

I can fight this.

While HYDRA turns me into a monster

My name is Bucky…

Trying to fight it, fighting the pain

My name is Bucky…

As they strip my mind away, as they kill me from the inside out

My name is Bucky….

I am not a monster

My name is Bucky….

I can’t stop them

Bucky…

Pain

Bucky….

Darkness

Who is Bucky…..?

A new world with one purpose in mind

Who am I?

Obey my masters, whatever they command

I am invincible but my life is pain.

I am a soldier, must obey my masters

If I disobey they hurt me, then darkness.

Fight and kill their enemies

I am powerful but I am still nothing but a muzzled dog.

Fear me.

I am the Winter Soldier.

Do you love Bucky as much as I do?





Day Four // Civil War Blog Party

Well....as you can see, it is technically not Day Four.  I apologize for not being consistent.  I have issues with consistency...the blasted thing hates my guts and so I hate it right back.  Consistency, I mean.


So let's pretend I didn't get kidnapped by pirates for a few days and everything is good and this is DAY FOUR. 


*drum roll*


Day Four: Pick a character from the opposite team that you like. Talk about him and/or defend him.


HOW CAN I CHOOSE.  I LOVE THEM ALL.  UGHLKSGHSLKHG.  STOP MAKING ME CHOOSE BETWEEN ALL MAH PEOPLES. 


Fine.  I shall talk about....

Peter Parker aka Spiderman


Now, let me clarify first that I have not seen any of the Spiderman movies.  Not one.  I am an ignorant little armadillo when it comes to Spiderman.  But I LOVED him in Civil War!!


I love how Peter is only a kid.  He's the only superhero is just a teenager and I find that adorable.  I mean...LOOK AT THIS KID.  HE LOOKS LIKE HE'S PRACTICALLY 14. 

also, why are there no pics/gifs of this guy on the internets yet??

He's precious.  And dorky.  And a geeky nerd with whom I can totally relate to 99.9% of the time during this movie.

Guys, if I was a superhero, I would totally be Spiderman.  As in, that's how I would act.  I can relate to this child.  Peter will be fighting and then randomly start making conversation with them and geeking out and the experienced Avengers are so befuddled and tell him, "No, you don't do that in a fight, you ignorant youngling". 

BUT HE MANAGED TO PIN THESE TWO DOWN ALL BY HIMSELF

Then the inexperienced baby spider gets dragged out a window because he got distracted talking to people hehe.

So yeah, I really liked Spiderman (or as Tony called him, Spiderboy and Spiderling) in Civil War.  He was so innocent and oblivious to the deeper meaning of this fighting, he was just trying to impress Mr. Stark who had taken Peter under his wing.  I mean, who WOULDN'T want to impress Mr. Stark if he came to your house and offered to take you to Germany to help him in a fight? 


I don't have any hard feelings about Spidey being on Iron Man's side.  At all. 


With all the grim older Avengers, it's nice to have someone who is new and young and so delightfully relatable to us teenagers. 

He's just a normal kid, guys!  A hilarious, brilliant, dorky kid.  The kind of guy who I'd want for a best friend. 


I love how Tony kind of takes him under his wing and how Cap ends up fighting with Spidey and Spidey is telling him all the things Tony said Cap would do and is basically telling Cap how Tony said to fight him.  Then when Cap defeats him, he asks Spidey, "Where are you from?"  "Queens," Spidey says.  Cap smiles and replies, "Brooklyn." 


So much cuteness.  Have some quotes.

And then at the end....IF YOU STAY FOR THE VERY VERY END CREDITS...there is this awesome scene where Peter explains to his aunt how he got a black eye and stuff and afterwards, Marvel says "SPIDERMAN WILL RETURN" and everyone in the theater started screaming....


I can't wait.  Anyway, those are my thoughts (COUGH ranting) on Spiderman. 

What did you think of Spidey?  Did you like him?